In between

 

This is the in between. 

There are about five weeks left before I move to Osaka. This time last year, I remember being in a miserable relationship, thinking of the best possible way to end it. I remember telling myself that I would not see another Christmas at the same company after the one that was coming. 

But it is also poignant to think of where I am right now in relation to where I am going. I am still too far off to think of saying goodbye to the people I've met here. But it seems there isn't nearly enough time to get things ready. 

It's been a whirlwind to think about how much has happened since I decided to start job hunting. The entire process, from start to finish, took about three months. I knew it would be a good time to start looking because of the hit to recruiting the pandemic has caused. At the same time, it is still rather breathtaking to think about the circumstances that have led me to this job. 

There was the interview at the other PLS school, which I was confident I would get. Thankfully that did not pan out since I don't know if I could have gone through more of the same. As I learn more through this diploma, I realise that there is so much more that we can do in the classroom beyond the constraints of PLS. I didn't get that job. 

And yet, within hours of receiving the rejection email I find out that R has posted about me in his local group and someone wanted to get in touch about hiring for this year. The culmination of the entire hiring process meant that I was ringing in the new year with a hope and prayer of thanks for having found a job. 

Looking forward, I hope for a new start to the rest of my life. I hope for the grace and wisdom to excel at this new job and for establishing my career. I hope for love, especially the forever kind of love. I hope to flourish and grow in Osaka, to have new hobbies or revisit old ones. To be surrounded by the arts and a faster moving pace. To meet open-minded people with wide ideas. 

No sense dedicating words right now to what has passed. They have gone and they were essential to getting me here. But either way, I am so excited for what the future holds - and there is nothing to stop me embracing it!